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4.10.2012

(Up)heaval

The Easter Bunny delivered a bag of balloons. Huge hit.
Tuck has long been a fan of the mylar, helium-filled sort, but has only just discovered the joy of the cheap, latex variety, filling them with water in the bathtub, “bopping” them back and forth with Daddy, chasing the untied ones as they fly through the air deflating.

Sometimes his whole little boy body seems to deflate, too.  Lately, sometimes actually feels like a lot.  It may just be that he's three.  But it may be more complicated than that.  Our family dynamic changed three times in the same number of months. He has been such a resilient little guy, gently welcoming new baby Tollie and cheerfully pointing out things that look like Celie's hair and calmly remembering that Colby chewed the hole in his beez. Often, though, he's not gentle or cheerful or calm.  And sometimes, when he isn't yelling or crying, his contemplative face, silent and just as sad, reminds me of a popped balloon.
Fortunately those aren't the times we think to grab the camera.
JEB

7 comments:

  1. I'm glad we were able to share some of those smiles over some yummy gummy worms!

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  2. Jenni Baby,

    Your post makes me sad. I remember when you were little and wanted balloons. We didn't have the extra money, so, we told you the Easter Bunny had a latex allergy. Beautiful memories unfulfilled, sorry about that.

    L2A

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  3. Oh 3-years-old and soooo many major changes...that's a hard combination. He'll be ok...those big smiles are genuine.

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  4. Such a tough time for a 3 year old and so hard for you to know what you can do to help him get through it all. My four year olds are just beginning to realize what they have lost and I am as a loss myself to find ways to comfort them and help them understand.

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  5. He's lived anything but a sheltered life these three short years hasn't he? Kids are so resilient. As a parent, though, it is hard to watch our kids suffer through even the slightest discomfort let alone the kind of heartache I'm sure Tucker is feeling. Hang in there little man. And mom and dad.

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  6. "And sometimes, when he isn't yelling or crying, his contemplative face, silent and just as sad, reminds me of a popped balloon."

    *****

    I don't know ~
    a life with no sorrow
    is not a real life.

    Tuck is, without question,
    a real boy.

    It would be strange
    if such a lively little person,
    with such a lively mind,
    and a heart full of feelings
    {full to bursting}
    didn't taste the sorrow
    of separation
    as intensely
    as the joy
    of eager exploration.

    It's okay if you grab the camera then, too.

    They really are something special - your kids - but you know that.

    Cathy in Missouri

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