noodling

Tolliver is known for reaching his hand deep into a hole. Doesn't matter where we are, doesn't matter what might be in it, doesn't bother him at all. He is, instead of fearful, singularly focused on what he might find.

The boys are, all three, always wondering, Trying to gather more information, trying to piece things together, trying to discover something new. 

And I am always... scared? Cautious! Exhausted.

Exhausted may be my least favorite feeling. While not physically tired, I am worn out, sick of thinking about what school will look like and whether we have chosen the best approach. 

We all miss precedented times. I was tired then too, and cautious, in different ways.

Tuck and Tollie have, without surprise, dug into new ways of learning. None of it is ideal, but all of it is new and they are adventurous and assured.

There's nothing ahead that they cannot handle, that we cannot handle. I learn that from the boys.