The screen door is open, because fall in Ohio is perfect, and the wind blows off the counter all the scraps of paper with notes about what needs to be done. Life is a house of cards here, at its foundation the sort of calendar that stares back at me with bloodshot eyes. I used to think Andy was selective about coffee but he is temporarily working three jobs and I think he might drink caffeinated gasoline. I wake up feeling like my stomach has arrived at a carnival and is poised at the top of a plunge ride. In short, lots of things are simmering and not much is settled.
9.20.2023
not much is settled
9.11.2023
on loving these boys
9.04.2023
early september
It's easy to judge a long weekend as exceptional based on the amount of time spent with family and friends and fish!
8.24.2023
seizing the end of summer
Andy's at the back door, this year's second ripe peach in hand, his smile full of pride. Hank is behind him, a fistful of flowers neighbor Deb has taught him precisely where to cut to encourage new blooms.
Another week is sliding toward the weekend, the clock is ticking so loud in my ear. Another halftime show, another baseball game, another book for little brother on the sideline.
We've been at the pool after school most days, trying to absorb enough sun to carry us through past Christmas. This evening Hank hosted a water ballon fight with the neighbors while Tucker helped husk corn to grill. After ribs and watermelon and dishes washed at the outside sink the boys ran to the grocery for vanilla ice cream to to go with the singular fruit. I emptied lunch boxes and arranged zinnias in a mason jar and monitored Tolliver's modeling glue situation at the counter nearby.
Last weekend, in addition to marching band and batting practice, Tucker was on a bike ride with friends and Tolliver was in the alley shooting hoops while Hank, after making pistachio cookies, watched a baking show on television. Most the time I don't even know where all of the boys are at once, and then suddenly there are six kids in the back yard and thirty five empty water cups on the patio table. I can't keep accurate records of all the lemonade stands and salsa parties, the hikes and the concerts and the good deeds and the garage piano, which deserves an entire essay of its own.