11.10.2015

Walk and Awe

It is still rather hard for me to understand, when I pause to consider it.
We live in a world with sunsets and giant sequoias, chardonnay and dark chocolate and birdsong in the spring, waterfalls and kitten whiskers and the scent of jasmine, and yet there are things -- afterthoughts or oversights, I don't know -- like terminal childhood disorders.  Things like Batten.
Humans are capable of space travel and cloning sheep, but four year old kids can die of disease.

One of the event organizers referenced Margaret Mead's words this week, and they seem so apropos:  "Never doubt that a small group of thoughtful people can change the world.  Indeed, it is the only thing that ever has."
Except the group that gathered over the weekend didn't feel very small.
We are in awe, still, at how many people showed up at great inconvenience to themselves -- they could’ve slept in, could’ve gone for pancakes instead, but came to support the research that is so important to us.  We are humbled by the willingness of so many to sacrifice time and money, to step into the muck and to climb the mountain of hope.  We are amazed that there are people who will invest in getting to know a little girl they never met.
You all keep us from wallowing in grief and give us more reason to be glad we are alive in this world.
Andy talked about the promising new clinical trial at Nationwide Childrens Hospital, the first of its kind in our country. And he thanked everyone for coming.  We really can't ever say that enough.
Nursing students, whom Andys only known since August, surprised him by showing up on Sunday!
Just a small sampling of local school age children, several of whom have a classmate with Batten, which must make something like a terminal diagnosis feel far less abstract.  
Happy birthday, Grandma Jan!
(find Buttercream Bakery on Facebook)
These three give a whole new meaning to turning compassionate awareness into action.

There are hundreds more wonderful photographs on the Battling Batten Facebook page.  Special thanks to Mark Burch and Karen Raver for framing so many great shots.

11.08.2015

more soon

This morning was magnificent.  If Batten Disease is the villain in this story, there are hundreds of heroes and heroines.  So many of you showed up today to fight for a cure, and we are forever grateful.

One of these days I'll have my act together.  I'll have sorted through photos and found the right words to thank all the right people.

I was reminded this morning, though, that when you can't use words, you have to pay so much more attention to everything else.  I kneeled down to help Layla - another mighty warrior fighting the toughest battle - with her Grand Marshal sash, and she touched my face a few times.  She knows, better than I do, that words are not always the most reliable thing, that sometimes language actually interferes with communication.
If we could hug all of you who came, and all of you who were with us in spirit, we'd do that.  And we'd whisper the most heartfelt Thanks.

11.05.2015

Talker

Wait, so you mean heaven is a like a big city for all the people under the rocks?

Remember when I was sick and my brain told my white blood cells to kill the sick germs?

Fiddling with a pair of sunglasses, batting the earpieces at each other: You know, giraffes fight with their necks like swords. 

The president’s name is Obama, right? That sounds like Oh bottom. 

Tucker: Tollie, you’re a baby.
Tolliver: I am not. Then you’re a kidiot.

Hey mom, do you know how many toes I have if I take away one? Four! See, one, two, three, four!

Studying a “pirate ship” docked downtown, as I try to explain (again) that it's a replica of an old ship: No, I think it’s actually just a regular person’s boat. A regular person what had a dream and found a wishing star and his dream came true and he got a private boat and then he ship-wrecked it right here by us. 

If I eat protein like cheese and meat and if I lift weights then I can have more muscles, right?

Rearranging pillows from ALL over the house in one spot on the floor: I am making a thinking place where I can sit and think about stuff.  

Hey, these camo shorts actually hide my pelvis! 

Mom, can I borrow your phone for a minute? I need to ask Siri for ideas how to scare my brother.

11.03.2015

today

The word "today" means Amen in every language.
Sierra DeMulder

11.01.2015

weekend bookends, with not much in between

Saturday morning the boys were circled around a very large container of Legos. They might have stayed there all day if I'd delivered things like apple slices and water bottles as requested.

Sunday evening, after a couple hours at the indoor pool, they were curled under the master bedroom duvet with a flashlight and a book, lost in a world of entertainment and companionship.

10.29.2015

T and T on the treat beat

The boys, dressed as bones and explosives, made it about two blocks to fill bags with candy tonight.  They were happy passing out chocolate from our front steps, admiring friends and neighbors' costumes, and eating lots of their own favorite treats.

10.27.2015

October's phone

1.  ready for rain
2.  bike riding buddies via @coyle9777
3.  milkshakes for the win
4.  fireplace season
5.  hydrangeas in October
6.  one dollar, thirty minutes, twenty laps
7.  first grade orchard trip
8.  getting Kinky! via @mollyholstein

9.  granite slide
10.  Littlefield reception #donutlovesbagel
11.  lady liberty
12.  Brooklyn snack & chat
13.  #boxseats
14.  Bloomberg view
15.  sandbox in Central Park
16.  hip hop + history = all the tonys

17.  Laughlin's Bakery
18.  new Legos (thanks, Ben Jay)
19.  House Wine enthusiasts
20.  #battlingbattendisease via @mkstahlohio
21.  this grill is on fire
22.  conservatory date
24.  he is here, and she is not

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