9.12.2019

so many pictures

And now that the big boys are back in school, they're mostly of Hank...

3 comments:

CiM said...

What I've always thought - Jenni, Andy - is about your bravery.

You let people in. Let us in - let us know you
your boys
Celia

That's brave

I admire that bravery. It feels like sacred ground, your opening this door.


What I've always feared - is somehow trampling, hurting, trespassing

God forbid, dishonoring

this sacred space


How are you supposed to feel about strangers hearts falling to earth or rising on wings

concerning the life - or death - of your child?


The other day, when you were found again - I read and read and read. I went back to the beginning. I read it all. The story of Celia, every scrap, each word, those pictures.

And poured my eyes out on my desk. Sore and angry and wishful and broken because of what happened to Celia - and to you.


And - beyond words surging, reckless, joyful because of your growing sons...they couldn't be any more loved in the world than they are in your arms.


I thought, what if I tell them and it hurts more? What if saying hello bruises their hearts? Or stirs what they'd want left still? If I press my hand and it feels hard, not soft - oh

I almost went away quietly.

I'm glad if this happened: You know how very much, deeply much, always-ever-lasting much your Celia and your family matter to other people. Your bravery matters. Your willingness to share the unthinkable, to write what can't be written - but write it anyway


That you - all of you - Poppy John - rht - you all would be so welcoming

Well - I can't say it's a surprise. That's the family I remember here. That's what you're like, what you always were.



These comments are too long but I won't fight them

they want to say

Thank You
Thank You
Thank You

Anything good I could ever wish for anyone, I wish for you.

CiM

"Death ends a life, not a relationship." {Laura Beck}

Andy and Jenni said...

Cathy - not sure how you feel about hugging strangers, but consensus here is you should probably visit Ohio. There's a line of folks who want to meet you, and say thanks.

CiM said...

That sounds like a dream come true.

You don't feel like strangers. I'd need a large box of kleenex to get through that line of hug and hello!

If I ever make it to Ohio, you can bet I won't miss you. A friend just came back from visiting family there. I sighed because she'd been so close to your neck of the woods. Maybe someday, me, too.

CiM